HIRING A CORPORATE SECURITY SPECIALIST

Being sick after traveling is in many ways a huge bummer. However, it allows time to think. Perhaps too much time; but, these are thoughts outside the day-to-day structure of life. New FRESH oxygenated energies can flow in to shape and enliven the nebulous guiding wisdoms that have been haunting and taunting my conscious awareness for awhile now.

This is NO time for big questions like,
“What’s next?” or
“Is it time to let this dream go?” 

Asking those kinds of questions now —  in a place of vulnerability coming out of a physical illness while on the heels of exhaustion from a too full schedule for too long a time — would be reckless and self-destructive. 

Letting FRESH energies filter in to mix and co-mingle with my stale concerns and revolving worries offers the promise of new awareness and shifted perspective. From here, I can better discern where I’m being guided to steer and where I’m being asked to float.

When life is NOT working,
it’s often difficult to delineate
specifically WHAT is not working.

When something’s gotta give, and what gives is ME (in this instance my health) then it’s a fair assumption that active change is in order.  So...

TIME TO BECOME A DETECTIVE IN MY OWN LIFE

Detective work happens to be a strong suit of mine, and a tool I've used often to help others. But the traditional vibe of police detective (outside energy, wired to be suspicious and trained to push buttons for the greater good) is not my way of working and would surely not do in this case.

INSTEAD, I'M HIRING MYSELF AS A CORPORATE SECURITY SPECIALIST

From Wikipedia:  “Corporate security identifies and effectively mitigates or manages, at an early stage, any developments that may threaten the resilience and continued survival of a corporation. It is a corporate function that oversees and manages the close coordination of all functions within the company that are concerned with security, continuity and safety.”

Yes, this job description feels much more useful. I will begin an internal security audit to evaluate and explore all facets of my world:

my work
my relationships
my projects
my play
my goals
my commitments
my self-care
my health

I'LL OBSERVE IT ALL CLOSELY

a day
a week
a month
a workday
a day off
a “good” day
a “bad” day

I’m giving myself a deadline which shall remain private and a project scope. I’m taking this downright serious. I will provide an assessment, reflection and recommendations. But that is not the FINAL word. I will then find outside consultants (aka a trusted confidant and a neutral third party) to explore my action options. 

If this seems a bit over the top, please realize that as a highly sensitive person, prone to emotional decision making who happens to ALSO be a driven and dedicated entrepreneur, this plan provides:

• emotional distance
• a short term focus that takes me a layer away from my current frustrations, and
• the small comfort of working toward a solution. 

This is NOT about self-judgment, shame/blame, or excessive self-indulgent contemplation (aka navel gazing). This is CREATIVE PROBLEM SOLVING incorporating my strengths while respecting my realities.

Wish me luck! 

Do you have a personal strong suit, an innate ability, a tool in your toolbox that you can put to use for you own benefit? 

I'd love to hear about it if you'd like to share. 

My best,